things that help

Taking the Path of Zen – Robert Aitken
Zen Mind, Beginner’s Mind – Shunryu Suzuki
Opening the Hand of Thought – Kosho Uchiyama
Everyday Zen – Charlotte Joko Beck
Radical Acceptance – Tara Brach
Full Catastrophe Living – John Kabat-Zinn
The Mindful Way Through Anxiety – Lizabeth Roemer and Susan M. Orsillo

Journey in Satchidananda – Alice Coltrane
Indivisible – Lungfish

Meditation based on Soto Zen – both sitting and in moment to moment daily life.
SSRI medication