reading watching listening



On Anarchism
– Noam Chomsky
The Undying – Anne Boyer
How to Blow Up a Pipeline – Andreas Malm
A Psalm for the Wild Built – Becky Chambers
A Stranger in Olondria – Sofia Samatar
A Country of Ghosts – Margaret Killjoy
Less is More – Jason Hickel
The Anchored World – Jasmine Sawers
The Future is Degrowth – Matthias Schmelzer, Andrea Vetter, Aaron Vansintjan
The Solutions are Already Here – Peter Gelderloos


Amazing Grace – Alan Elliot
Isle of the Dead – Mark Robson
Blacula – William Crain
Lair of the White Worm – Ken Russell
Vampires Kiss – Robert Bierman
Ana y los lobos – Carlos Saura
Roberta – William Seiter
A Girl Walks Home Alone at Night – Ana Lily Amirpour
The Tempest; Caravaggio – Derek Jarman
Laocoon and Sons; Madame X: An Absolute Ruler; Ticket of No Return; Freak Orlando; Chamisso’s Shadow; Joan of Arc of Mongolia; Prater – Ulrike Ottinger
The Phantom of the Monastery – Fernando de Fuentes
When You’re Lost in the Rain; Wawa; Jaaji Approx; Fainting Spells; Lore; Dislocation Blues; Anti-objects, or Space without Path or Boundary; Malni – Sky Hopinka
Foxy Brown – Jack Hill
Made in USA – Jean Luc Godard
The Golden Chain – Adebukola Bodunrin and Ezra Clayton Daniels
Burroughs the Movie – Howard Brockner
La Jetee – Chris Marker
Shall We Dance – Mark Sandrich
Martha Clarke Light & Dark: A Dancer’s Journal – Joyce Chapra
Freedom Fields – Naziha Arebi
The Naked Island – Kaneto Shindo
The Wonderland – Keeichi Hara
April and the Extraordinary World – Christian Desmares and Franck Ekinci
House; Emotion – Nobuhiko Obayashi
Himiko – Masahiro Shinoda
Lady Snowblood – Toshiya Fujita


Kabalaba – Art Ensemble of Chicago
Huntington Ashram Monastery – Alice Coltrane
Hour Glass – Chyna Streetz
The Sampler as a Time Machine; A Quiet Room In Walthamstow Original Motion Picture Score; Sweat Like Caramel – Lia Mice
Ignoto – OVO
Circuit Spectre – Dorothy Carlos
Al Ritmo Pajarit – florconvenas
Florescence – Loula Yorke

reading watching listening



Bioluminescent Baby and Vertigo & Ghost – Fiona Benson
King Cat 81 – John Porcellino
Behind the Zines 13 – Billy McCall, editor
Wonder Woman Forgotten Legends – Trina Robbins and Kurt Busiek
Wonder Woman Vol 1 – George Perez, Len Wein
Wonder Woman Dead Earth – Daniel Warren Johnson
La mala hora – Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Lure – Lane Milburn
The Performance of Listening in Postcolonial Francophone Culture – Jennifer Solheim
Junkwraith – Ellinor Richey
Abolition. Feminism. Now. – Angela Y. Davis, Gina Dent, Erica R. Meiners, and Beth E. Richie
Binti – Nnedi Okorafor
Fascism Today: What it is and how to end it – Shane Burley
Legendary Children – Tom Fitzgerald and Lorenzo Marquez
The Ministry for the Future Kim Stanley Robinson
The Princess Diarist – Carrie Fisher
The Dawn of Everything: A New History of Humanity – David Graeber and David Wengrow
Mutual Aid – Dean Spade
Behind the Zines 14 – Billy McCall, editor


Mars Attacks – Tim Burton
The Matrix – Lana and Lily Wachowski
Star Wars The Rise of Skywalker
Star Trek Into Darkness
Soul Power – Jeffrey Kusama-Hinte
Star Trek The Next Generation
Sign ‘O’ The Times – Prince
Russian Doll (season 2)
The Song Remains the Same – Peter Clifton and Joe Massot
A Composer’s Notes: Philip Glass and the Making of an Opera – Michael Blackwood
Wattstax – Mel Stuart
Dune – Denis Villaneuve
Karen Dalton In My Own Time – Richard Peete and Robert Yapkowitz
French Open 2022
Duvidha Mani Kaul
Summer of Soul – Questlove
Surname Viet Given Name Nam – Trinh T Minh-ha
Fire Music – Tom Surgal
Bird, Bath and Beyond; Electrocute Your Stars; The Ontological Cowboy; Eat My Makeup!; Flying Saucey; Manuelle Labor – Marie Losier
1968<2018<2068 – Keisha Rae Witherspoon
Margin – Maya Da-rin
Last Call at Maud’s – Paris Poirer
Wimbledon 2022
The Running Jumping & Standing Still Film – Richard Lester
Vegas in Space – Philip R. Ford
Garrincha: Alegria do Povo – Joaquim Pedro de Andrade
The Vanquishing of the Witch Baba Yaga; Beetle Queen Conquers Tokyo; Aatsinki: The Story of Arctic Cowboys – Jessica Oreck
A League of their Own (Series)


Segundo – Juana Molina
Sonic Nurse – Sonic Youth
Things We Need – Gogogo Airheart
Ch-vox – Seefeel
Chi-congo – Art Ensemble of Chicago
Abyss Chasers: Hollow Memory; LUCKY! – Casper Mcadden
the Light Emitting Diamond Cutter Scriptures – R.A.P. Ferreira
Dark Humor – Jana Rush
Addle – Bogdan Raczynski
Projections – VTSS
A Love Supermeme; (Devoción); El Sol y sus Flagelos – Manitas Nerviosas
Ordinary Circles – Sol Patches
Métempsycose – Sophia Djebel Rose
abate breakdown – Getuss
recur5 – tsx
Castle in the Sky – Jennifer Vanilla
Holy Body Roll – A. Billi Free and the Lasso
Wisteria – Shelley Parker
Nature’s World – Mother Nature and Renzell
BELIEVER – Ivy Hollivana
Drive My K – LieDeeDonk
Invisible Miracles – Rocio Zavala
Music from Four Movements & Other Favorites – Woody Sullender
Black Magic – Fury
Morning Song – Kalaparusha Maurice McIntyre

flotation device 18

I started making Flotation Device in 1998 and I did it frequently and regularly for a while. Then for a while I didn’t make it at all and I thought I was done making them. But then I started up and I realized that I had only been on a super slow and sometimes irregular schedule. And now, here is the 18th issue. Which seems both crazy and totally normal at the same time. Making zines is just something I do at this point. Although I struggle with, like, who do I make them for? Why do I make them? Etc.

Flotation Device 18 is a (hopefully not too) heavy times zine about my grieving process for my friend Alex who died a year and a half ago now. It’s a collection of the thoughts I had and feelings/sensations I felt during that first year and some stray memories of him that live in me. There’s also some random detritus that made sense to include at the end. Ephemera!

I’ve decided I’m pretty much done selling things, although I will take some of these to Quimby’s for olde tymes sake. I’m in a position where I can not participate in capitalism in this tiny infinitesimal way. I don’t need to sell things, so why bother. Which means if you’d like a copy of this zine, just send me an email and say so. I’ll send you one for free. I’m happy if someone reads it.

reading watching listening



Half Witch – John Schoffstall
The Habits of Foxes and Strange Ghosts – Kat Philbin
Water Logic and Air Logic – Laurie J. Marks
Feminist Antifascism: Counter-publics of the Common – Ewa Majewska
Piranesi – Susanna Clarke
The Nutmeg’s Curse – Amitav Ghosh
The Fifth Season, The Obelisk Gate, and The Stone Sky – N.K. Jemisin
The Actual Star – Monica Byrne
Terminal Boredom – Izumi Suzuki
Iggy & the Stooges On Stage 1967-1974 – Per Nilsen
Chicago, comics and life: 1999-2012 – Anders Nilsen
No Time To Spare – Ursula K. Le Guin


Jean-Michel Basquiat: The Radiant Child – Tamra Davis
Star Trek Lower Decks
Trances – Ahmed El Maanouni
Dry Wood – Les Blank
Forza Bastia – Jacques Tati and Sophie Tatischeff
Hedwig and the Angry Inch – John Cameron Mitchell
It’s Such a Beautiful Day – Don Hertzfeldt
La Pointe Courte – Agnes Varda
Only Lovers Left Alive – Jim Jarmusch
Doctor X – Michael Curtiz
Stage Door – Gregory La Cava
Valerie and Her Week of Wonders – Jaromil Jires
Black Moon – Louis Malle
Blood and Black Lace – Mario Bava
Ceiling – Vera Chytilova
Deep Blues – Robert Mugge
Taste the Blood of Dracula – Peter Sasdy
Eye of the Devil – J. Lee Thompson
Zombies – Baloji
The Fate of Lee Khan – King Hu
Spider Baby – Jack Hill
It’s a Jackie Thing – Charles Atlas
Melody Set Me Free – Kalup Linzy
Tally Brown, New York – Rosa von Praunheim
Black Lizard – Umetsugu Inoue
Sword of the Beast – Hideo Gosha
Cassandro el Exotico – Marie Losier
Burst City – Gakuryu Ishii
The Hidden Fortress – Akira Kurusawa
Kids in the Hall
Bizarre Foods America
Star Wars The Clone Wars
The French Dispatch – Wes Anderson
Lydia Lunch: The War is Never Over – Beth B
Tord and Tord, Bath House, The Burden, Something To Remember – Niki Lindroth von Bahr
Edward II – Derek Jarman
Star Trek Lower Decks
Star Trek Discovery
Rock and Roll High School
Spiderman Far From Home
Star Wars Clone Wars
The Book Of Boba Fett
Princess Mononoke – Hayao Miyazaki
Kuroneko – Kaneto Shindo
The Woodmans – C Scott Willis


CHRY-PTUS – Eliane Radigue
Tough! – Art Blakey
Ancestor Boy – Lafawndah
Khonnar and Dhakar – Deena Abdelwahed
New Growth and Don’t Get It Twisted – Delores Galore
Human Dance – Yuvees
Nude Descending – Versing
Girlish – Gal Pal
What Kind Of Dream – Secret Superpower
The High Priestess – Rita J
LDOLS and Crowd Control Vol. 2 Loula Yorke
La Luz – La Luz
Signals In My Head – DJ Manny
Nation Time – Joe McPhee
Air – Cecil Taylor Quartet
La ultima rave del mundo – Pozole666
Black Origami – Jlin
Chansons d’ennui – Jarvis Cocker
Porto Novo – Marion Brown
Nation Time – Joe McPhee
Air Cecil Taylor Quartet

summer 2021

July 15, 2021

Of a sudden – a downpour afternoon

A white heron stands fishing near the shore
the geese in the pond across the green swim
and shake the rain from their feathers
five small white birds fly above the heron’s pond
occasionally diving in to catch aquatic creatures

A roll of thunder
and the geese honk and hop out of their pond to sit on the green grass
sheets give way to drops
the sizzle hiss becomes staccato beats

The veil lifts incrementally and distant trees reemerge
in the grass a frog sings low

I sit on the porch and read about a young trans  girl
fighting to exist in North Carolina

July 18, 2021

A scalded tongue
fields and wind break trees
A landscape of repetition
you reveal yourself in layers

July 20, 2021

Sitting in the silence of night
a yellow moon
airplanes, cars,
the cat’s water fountain in the kitchen

Straining my ears for crickets,
other insects of the summer night

but only silence

It could be winter
but for the open window

August 7, 2021

Reading a book in the morning
Observing the rotation of the earth
as sunlight spreading
across the page

August 24, 2021


Warmth. Mellow depth appreciation. Smoothness of voice.
Third shift small town rave-up.
Cleaning an apartment bathroom, sun pouring through window.
Mexico is imminent.

Jazz chords and beats. Internal summer dance parties.
Recycled from an early millennium crushed out mix-tape.


Ascending drama. A cavern. Night.
Golden slink opulence. A queen rather than lizard king.
Head nods. The nineties dream spanning decades.
Ecstatic pop. A smear of sound.

Canopied optimism.
New and old anthems.

September 19, 2021

the moon
behind clouds
dark trees silhouette
against night sky


reading watching listening



An Unkindness of Ghosts – Rivers Solomon
Best Show Ever – Alyssa Giannini, editor
The Star Fish – Martha Grover
Grapefruit – Yoko Ono
Phases of the Moon 5 and 6 – Stacey-Marie Piotrowski
The Heart of the Universe – Mu Soeng
When I Arrived at the Castle – Emily Carroll
All-Star Superman – Grant Morrison and Frank Quitely
Monk – Youssef Daoudi
The Beginning Place – Ursula K. Le Guin
Awesome Things #3 and Caboose #13 – Liz Mason
How to Survive the Portland Winter and Somnambulist #26 – Martha Grover
Sir, Is This Love? – Liz Yerby
is stronger than death – Sharon McKellar
Ker-Bloom! 149, 150, and 151 – Artnoose
Cat Party #6 – Katie Haegele, editor
Xerography Debt 50 – David Breier, editor
Planet on Fire: A Manifesto for the Age of Environmental Breakdown -Mathew Lawrence and Laurie Laybourn-Langton
Pieces 11, 14, 15 – Nichole Baiel
Wake: The Hidden History of Women-led Slave Revolts – Rebecca Hall
The Magic Fish – Trung Le Nguyen
Leeking Ink 33, 34, 35 – Davida Breier
We Do This Til We Free Us – Mariame Kaba
Wanderer 7 – Alyssa Giannini
The Thread 15 – Rachel Lee Carman


Home of the Brave – Laurie Anderson
Sisters with Transistors – Lisa Rovner
Monterey Pop and Shake! – D.A. Pennebaker
Festival – Murray Lerner
Word is Out: Stories of Some of Our Lives – Mariposa Film Group
Scott Pilgrim Vs. The World
The Celluloid Closet – Rob Epstein and Jeffrey Friedman
Female Trouble – John Waters
Bernice Bobs Her Hair – Joan Macklin Silver
Say Amen, Somebody and No Maps On My Taps – George T. Nierenberg
The French – William Klein
A Day on the Grand Canal with the Emperor of China – Philip Haas
I’ll Remember You as You Were, Not as What You’ll Become – Sky Hopinka
with it which it as it if it is to be Part II – Eve Fowler
Mayor – David Osit
Top Spin – Sara Newens and Mina T. Son
Storme: The Lady of the Jewel Box, Odds and Ends, ..But Then, She’s Betty Carter – Michelle Parkerson
Beyond the Visible: Hilma af Klimt – Halina Dyrschka
Star Trek – JJ Abrams
Drag Race All Stars
Self Portrait – Maria Lassnig
Lil Picard, Art is a Party – Silvianna Goldsmith
Sno-white (Crimson) – Martha Edelheit
Plumb Line – Carolee Schneeman
Depot – Susan Brockman
Circles II – Doris Chase
Wings of Thought – Olga Spiegel
Parallax – Rosalind Schneider
The Adventures of Baron Munchausen, and Invention for Destruction – Karel Zeman
The Giverny Document – Ja’tovia Gary
Clockwatchers – Jill Sprecher
The End of Suffering (a proposal) – Jacqueline Ientzou
Wigstock – Barry Shils


Four Meditations for Orchestra – Pauline Oliveros
Echo – Dave Burrell
I Promise Never to get Paint on my Glasses Again – Clouddead
The Doors, Strange Days, Morrison Hotel, Waiting for the Sun, LA Woman – The Doors
Ecstatic Computation – Caterina Barbieri
Rid of Me – PJ Harvey
Challenge for a Civilized Society – Unwound
Emperor Tomato Ketchup – Stereolab
Axes’ and No Shouts No Calls – Electrelane
Walking with Thee – Clinic
so addictive and Under Construction – Missy Elliot
Neu 1 and Neu 2 – Neu!
Psychic Psummer and Neverendless – Cave
ANTI – Rihanna
13 – Lee Hazlewood
Each One, Teach One – Oneida
When I Get Home – Solange
– The Ex
Everything is Beautiful – Princess Nokia
Replicas – Gary Numan
Q Are We Not Men? – Devo
Last Splash – The Breeders
Dub Housing and The Modern Dance – Pere Ubu
Dreamtime – Tom Verlaine
Live in Bergen – Avant Joik
Sznz – Mother Nature and Boathouse
#2 – Conatus
Ex Voto – Djunah

April – May 2021

April 14, 2021

Midnight. The silence of the house. Computer fans. The whir of the refrigerator. The general sound of air moving through enclosed space.

A repeating muscle spasm in my chest.

Thinking of my friend spending tonight in the emergency room. All the comings and goings and noises of a space that never sleeps.

April 27, 2021

Midnight and cool breeze through open windows

(lilac in the air this afternoon)

The temporary novelty of bare skin on sandals

Sitting with the impossibility of comprehending the totality of the full moon

May 2, 2021

Warm air
Wind and onions cooking
Instant time travel
The kitchen in Turrucares
Mincing onions in a processor
And peeling garlic left my fingers sticking together

radio, radio!

Hello, I’ve been doing a radio show for a few weeks now. That’s kind of exciting. It’s an online radio station out of England. You can find that here:

My show is called Flux Capacitor and new shows air every other Saturday night from 10pm-12am Chicago time (UTC-05) with repeats the following Monday from 3-5pm Chicago time (UTC-05).

If you can’t tune in for the initial broadcast, you can find old shows over at mixcloud!