I started making Flotation Device in 1998 and I did it frequently and regularly for a while. Then for a while I didn’t make it at all and I thought I was done making them. But then I started up and I realized that I had only been on a super slow and sometimes irregular schedule. And now, here is the 18th issue. Which seems both crazy and totally normal at the same time. Making zines is just something I do at this point. Although I struggle with, like, who do I make them for? Why do I make them? Etc.
Flotation Device 18 is a (hopefully not too) heavy times zine about my grieving process for my friend Alex who died a year and a half ago now. It’s a collection of the thoughts I had and feelings/sensations I felt during that first year and some stray memories of him that live in me. There’s also some random detritus that made sense to include at the end. Ephemera!
I’ve decided I’m pretty much done selling things, although I will take some of these to Quimby’s for olde tymes sake. I’m in a position where I can not participate in capitalism in this tiny infinitesimal way. I don’t need to sell things, so why bother. Which means if you’d like a copy of this zine, just send me an email and say so. I’ll send you one for free. I’m happy if someone reads it.
Half Witch – John Schoffstall The Habits of Foxes and Strange Ghosts – Kat Philbin Water Logic and Air Logic – Laurie J. Marks Feminist Antifascism: Counter-publics of the Common – Ewa Majewska Piranesi – Susanna Clarke The Nutmeg’s Curse – Amitav Ghosh The Fifth Season, The Obelisk Gate, and The Stone Sky – N.K. Jemisin The Actual Star – Monica Byrne Terminal Boredom – Izumi Suzuki Iggy & the Stooges On Stage 1967-1974 – Per Nilsen Chicago, comics and life: 1999-2012 – Anders Nilsen No Time To Spare – Ursula K. Le Guin
Jean-Michel Basquiat: The Radiant Child – Tamra Davis Star Trek Lower Decks Trances – Ahmed El Maanouni Dry Wood – Les Blank Forza Bastia – Jacques Tati and Sophie Tatischeff Hedwig and the Angry Inch – John Cameron Mitchell It’s Such a Beautiful Day – Don Hertzfeldt La Pointe Courte – Agnes Varda Only Lovers Left Alive – Jim Jarmusch Doctor X – Michael Curtiz Stage Door – Gregory La Cava Valerie and Her Week of Wonders – Jaromil Jires Black Moon – Louis Malle Blood and Black Lace – Mario Bava Ceiling – Vera Chytilova Deep Blues – Robert Mugge Taste the Blood of Dracula – Peter Sasdy Eye of the Devil – J. Lee Thompson Zombies – Baloji The Fate of Lee Khan – King Hu Spider Baby – Jack Hill It’s a Jackie Thing – Charles Atlas Melody Set Me Free – Kalup Linzy Tally Brown, New York – Rosa von Praunheim Black Lizard – Umetsugu Inoue Sword of the Beast – Hideo Gosha Cassandro el Exotico – Marie Losier Burst City – Gakuryu Ishii The Hidden Fortress – Akira Kurusawa Kids in the Hall Bizarre Foods America Star Wars The Clone Wars The French Dispatch – Wes Anderson Lydia Lunch: The War is Never Over – Beth B Tord and Tord, Bath House, The Burden, Something To Remember – Niki Lindroth von Bahr Edward II – Derek Jarman Star Trek Lower Decks Star Trek Discovery Rock and Roll High School Spiderman Far From Home Star Wars Clone Wars The Book Of Boba Fett Princess Mononoke – Hayao Miyazaki Kuroneko – Kaneto Shindo The Woodmans – C Scott Willis
CHRY-PTUS – Eliane Radigue Tough! – Art Blakey Ancestor Boy – Lafawndah Khonnar and Dhakar – Deena Abdelwahed New Growth and Don’t Get It Twisted – Delores Galore Human Dance – Yuvees Nude Descending – Versing Girlish – Gal Pal What Kind Of Dream – Secret Superpower The High Priestess – Rita J LDOLS and Crowd Control Vol. 2 Loula Yorke La Luz – La Luz Signals In My Head – DJ Manny Nation Time – Joe McPhee Air – Cecil Taylor Quartet La ultima rave del mundo – Pozole666 Black Origami – Jlin Chansons d’ennui – Jarvis Cocker Porto Novo – Marion Brown Nation Time – Joe McPhee Air Cecil Taylor Quartet
A white heron stands fishing near the shore
the geese in the pond across the green swim
and shake the rain from their feathers
five small white birds fly above the heron’s pond
occasionally diving in to catch aquatic creatures
A roll of thunder
and the geese honk and hop out of their pond to sit on the green grass
sheets give way to drops
the sizzle hiss becomes staccato beats
The veil lifts incrementally and distant trees reemerge
in the grass a frog sings low
I sit on the porch and read about a young trans girl
fighting to exist in North Carolina
July 18, 2021
A scalded tongue
fields and wind break trees
A landscape of repetition
you reveal yourself in layers
July 20, 2021
Sitting in the silence of night
a yellow moon
the cat’s water fountain in the kitchen
Straining my ears for crickets,
other insects of the summer night
but only silence
It could be winter
but for the open window
August 7, 2021
Reading a book in the morning
Observing the rotation of the earth
as sunlight spreading
across the page
August 24, 2021
Warmth. Mellow depth appreciation. Smoothness of voice.
Third shift small town rave-up.
Cleaning an apartment bathroom, sun pouring through window.
Mexico is imminent.
Jazz chords and beats. Internal summer dance parties.
Recycled from an early millennium crushed out mix-tape.
Ascending drama. A cavern. Night.
Golden slink opulence. A queen rather than lizard king.
Head nods. The nineties dream spanning decades.
Ecstatic pop. A smear of sound.
New and old anthems.
September 19, 2021
dark trees silhouette
against night sky
An Unkindness of Ghosts – Rivers Solomon Best Show Ever – Alyssa Giannini, editor The Star Fish – Martha Grover Grapefruit – Yoko Ono Phases of the Moon 5 and 6 – Stacey-Marie Piotrowski The Heart of the Universe – Mu Soeng When I Arrived at the Castle – Emily Carroll All-Star Superman – Grant Morrison and Frank Quitely Monk – Youssef Daoudi The Beginning Place – Ursula K. Le Guin Awesome Things #3 and Caboose #13 – Liz Mason How to Survive the Portland Winter and Somnambulist #26 – Martha Grover Sir, Is This Love? – Liz Yerby is stronger than death – Sharon McKellar Ker-Bloom! 149, 150, and 151 – Artnoose Cat Party #6 – Katie Haegele, editor Xerography Debt 50 – David Breier, editor Planet on Fire: A Manifesto for the Age of Environmental Breakdown -Mathew Lawrence and Laurie Laybourn-Langton Pieces 11, 14, 15 – Nichole Baiel Wake: The Hidden History of Women-led Slave Revolts – Rebecca Hall The Magic Fish – Trung Le Nguyen Leeking Ink 33, 34, 35 – Davida Breier We Do This Til We Free Us – Mariame Kaba Wanderer 7 – Alyssa Giannini The Thread 15 – Rachel Lee Carman
Home of the Brave – Laurie Anderson Sisters with Transistors – Lisa Rovner Pose Monterey Pop and Shake! – D.A. Pennebaker Festival – Murray Lerner Word is Out: Stories of Some of Our Lives – Mariposa Film Group Scott Pilgrim Vs. The World – The Celluloid Closet – Rob Epstein and Jeffrey Friedman Female Trouble – John Waters Bernice Bobs Her Hair – Joan Macklin Silver Say Amen, Somebody and No Maps On My Taps – George T. Nierenberg The French – William Klein Loki Glow A Day on the Grand Canal with the Emperor of China – Philip Haas I’ll Remember You as You Were, Not as What You’ll Become – Sky Hopinka with it which it as it if it is to be Part II – Eve Fowler Mayor – David Osit Top Spin – Sara Newens and Mina T. Son Storme: The Lady of the Jewel Box, Odds and Ends, ..But Then, She’s Betty Carter – Michelle Parkerson Beyond the Visible: Hilma af Klimt – Halina Dyrschka Star Trek – JJ Abrams Halston Drag Race All Stars Self Portrait – Maria Lassnig Lil Picard, Art is a Party – Silvianna Goldsmith Sno-white (Crimson) – Martha Edelheit Plumb Line – Carolee Schneeman Depot – Susan Brockman Circles II – Doris Chase Wings of Thought – Olga Spiegel Parallax – Rosalind Schneider The Adventures of Baron Munchausen, and Invention for Destruction – Karel Zeman The Giverny Document – Ja’tovia Gary Clockwatchers – Jill Sprecher The End of Suffering (a proposal) – Jacqueline Ientzou Wigstock – Barry Shils
Four Meditations for Orchestra – Pauline Oliveros Echo – Dave Burrell I Promise Never to get Paint on my Glasses Again – Clouddead The Doors, Strange Days, Morrison Hotel, Waiting for the Sun, LA Woman – The Doors Ecstatic Computation – Caterina Barbieri Rid of Me – PJ Harvey Challenge for a Civilized Society – Unwound Emperor Tomato Ketchup – Stereolab ‘Axes’ and No Shouts No Calls – Electrelane Walking with Thee – Clinic …so addictive and Under Construction – Missy Elliot Neu 1 and Neu 2 – Neu! Psychic Psummer and Neverendless – Cave ANTI – Rihanna 13 – Lee Hazlewood Each One, Teach One – Oneida When I Get Home – Solange Turn – The Ex Everything is Beautiful – Princess Nokia Replicas – Gary Numan Q Are We Not Men? – Devo Last Splash – The Breeders Dub Housing and The Modern Dance – Pere Ubu Dreamtime – Tom Verlaine Live in Bergen – Avant Joik Sznz – Mother Nature and Boathouse #2 – Conatus Ex Voto – Djunah
Ten mourning doves arrayed on tree branches and the cables connecting our house to the pole in the alley. Heads buried in puffed feather bodies against the cold. Backgrounded by gray sky and white snow roofs.
Febrary 21, 2021
1 am. Longing for an open window and the sound of speeding motorcycles on the highway.
Wanderer 6 – Alyssa Giannini Merch Table Funnies – Shana Cleveland King Cat 80 – John Porcellino No Scene Zine 3 Paying the Land – Joe Sacco Behind the Zines 11 – Billy McCall, ed Tumultuous Times 1 and 2; Eureka! – EC Staniforth A Conspiracy of Cartographers 2 – Eric J. I Am A Camera 19 and 20 – Vanessa Berry Glass Town – Isabel Greenberg Is This How You See Me? – Jaime Hernandez Seasonal Shift – Lala Albert XTC69 – Jessica Campbell Finding Meaning: The Sixth Stage of Grief – David Kessler China Root: Taoism, Ch’an, and Original Zen – David Hinton Lines and Scenes – Harry Josephine Giles The Golden Key – Marian Womack The Mushroom at the End of the World – Anna Lowenhaupt Tsing Dayglo: The Poly Styrene Story – Celeste Bell and Zoe Howe Kerbloom 99, 112, and 145 – Artnoose
Appalachian Spring Style Wars – Tony Silver Orphan Black Sanshiro Sugata 1 and 2 – Akira Kurosawa Fantastic Mr. Fox – Wes Anderson Forbidden Room – Guy Maddin Vendetta of a Samurai – Kazuo Mori When I Get Home – Solange Solo Russian Doll Raising Arizona – Coen Brothers Samurai 1 Musashi Miyamoto – Hiroshi Inagaki Beautiful Darling – James Rasin Painters Painting – Emile de Antonio Chicago Red Stars Soul!
EVOL, Dirty, Experimental Jet Set, Trash and No Star, Sonic Nurse, and A Thousand Leaves – Sonic Youth The Punchline – The Minutemen Talking Book – Stevie Wonder Persian Surgery Dervishes – Terry Riley At The Helm – East New York Ensemble of Music Karma and Black Unity – Pharoah Sanders Lost and Found – J Pavone String Ensemble War Club – DJ Shub Girl Like Me – Amy Dabbs Hounds of Love – Kate Bush NYC Ghosts & Flowers – Sonic Youth Gaslit – Dvide and Dissolve Stolen Car – Carl Stone Labelle – Labelle Cantus, Descant – Sarah Davachi Demo – Scissor Girls Overload – Georgia Anne Muldrow You’re Dead – Flying Lotus Stories from the City Stories from the Sea – PJ Harvey Gyrate – Pylon Phase One and Kabalaba – Art Ensemble of Chicago Morricone Segreto – Ennio Morricone Cheap Trick – Cheap Trick Low End Theory – A Tribe Called Quest The Return – Sampa The Great Triumph! – Steve Colson and the Unity Troupe
Behind the Zines #9 – Billy McCall, editor Moonwise – Greer Gilman Idols Vol 1 2019 ed.: K-POP feat. Leo of VIXX and Tastes Like Home – Allison Catuira La Hojarasca – Gabriel Garcia Márquez Mixtape #4 – Molly Growler El colonel no tiene quien le escribe – Gabriel Garcia Márquez Viridis Venefica #2 and #3 – Sinoun Tao Te Ching – David Hinton (translator) Maids – Katie Skelly Fire Logic and Earth Logic – Laurie J. Marks The Body of Work and The Half Men – Kevin Huizenga Soft Reset – Kaitlin Kostus Everyone Calls Themselves An Ally Until It Is Time To Do Some Real Ally Shit – Verde – Sonia Viento Cul de Sac #8 – Julie Halpern and Liz Mason
watching Root Hog or Die, A Film About John Porcellino and King-Cat Comix Lunch On Star Trek Enterprise RuPaul’s Drag Race All Stars The Princess Bride At Home With Amy Sedaris Star Trek Picard Willow Star Trek Discovery Ugly Delicious Brainiac: Transmissions After Zero The Muppet Movie Drag Race Canada Cooked The Mandalorian The Addams Family Inside Llewyn Davis Carnival of Souls Jane B – Agnes Varda Monty Python and the Holy Grail Cleopatra Jones Ornette Coleman Made in America – Shirley Clarke Guerillere Talks – Vivienne Dick Imagine the Sound – Ron Mann Grey Gardens – Maysles The Ballad of genesis and Lady Jaye – Night Journey – Marie Losier Born in Flames – Lizzie Borden The Eagle Shooting Heroes – Jeffrey Lau Gate of Hell – Teinosuke Kinugasa The Last Angel of History – John Akomfrah and Edward George The Changing Same – Cauleen Smith
listening Coochi3 – Edge Slayer Middle Ouest – Bergsonist Grapefruit Regret – Karenn Nevaeh – MHYSA Created in the Image of Suffering – King Woman All The Rooms I Have Been Touched In – Madam Data Towards the Shadow – Wume Vous et Nous and Brigitte Fontaine est… – Brigitte Fontaine Deceipt – This Heat Automatic Midnight – Hot Snakes Evil Nigger/Gay Guerilla – Julius Eastman Instrumentals – Mouse On Mars Red Lite– Mr. Airplane Man Kubali – MC Yallah Everything is Beautiful – Princess Nokia Under Constructin – Missy Elliot EVOL – Sonic Youth Geography – Front 242 Laila’s Wisdom – Rapsody Iaora Tahiti – Mouse On Mars A B – Juana Molina Baden Baden Free Jazz Meeting – Don Cherry New York Eye and Ear Control – Albert Ayler